this project is my way of healing through a break-up & my mother's hospitalization in December 2015. I want to share these moods & soundscapes with you. it's a story of love, of heartbreak, of getting through depression, of drinking in excess, of sleepless nights, of doing shrooms in Sedona, of forgiveness, of learing to love yourself, of waking up one day & realizing, it'll be ok.
these beats are a soundtrack through the most beautiful & most challenging time of my life. i hope you, the listener, can find something in them. something that'll make you smile, cry, or hum along.
Max, for your dedication and passion; for the countless ideas & hours spent on this project. sin ti, this tape would've never reached it's potential. i thank you for everything, hermano.
Dirtyverbs, I can never thank you enough. for giving me sage advice, for giving me all the equipment this beat tape was made on, & for giving me a second home. carnal, we outchea—hope el mundo is ready for our dreams.
Chicana X, all I do is something I hope you take pride in. thank you for knocking sense into me, keeping me safe and giving me some of your patience.
Kelly, you are a beacon of light. thank you for caring for me; thank you for the hugs, the mota, the encouragement, and the space to be ok. i owe you big time.
[special props y admiration]:
Lingos / Da Mighty TOP NAX / B3NBi / Rey y Pat Daddy Purp / Fonz, Mez, Mo-licious, Tito, Dora y the whole Flower & Bullets crew / Lando Chill / Pike / Bronze Candidate / AZtekk / SUI BLUE / Young Yume / DJ NVRMND / DJ Aqua / DJ Holmes / DJ Alias / Djentrification / Herm / DJ Jirasoul / Proper 1ne (MIKE CHEKC) / Nug-Noggin / Hoover (WHERE U AT?) / AlottaAra, Zackario, Josey SpitFire, Evita, PoetLagrimas / Alisha (thank you thank you thank you) / Jackie y Khi / Spring y Las Twins / Perla (butterfly, flap those wings!) / Teré (who got dem bars?) / Isaac y Chelsea / Timo y the Bruv Luv crew / Kerensita / Cecilia / Tweety (yeah, i still luv u) / Jairo (thank you for giving me your güd vibes) / anyone I forget to mention, pinch me when you see me (tortoise boy style).
released June 6, 2016
arranged, produced & mixed: DJ Q.
photography, art direction & design: Maxwell Gay.